so i guess it’s september now
wildddddd
anywwayyyyyyyy im tired :)
i made a goofy little effect on xcvr, and by i made i mean i remembered some effect that i saw in a blog post from 6 years ago like 2 years ago and copy and pasted it etc…..
but that was a fun thing today
i got into minecraft after last week’s post, or maybe a lil bit before that one, but, for the first time in my life, i have beaten minecraft. so how about those end credits, kinda weird, right? also omg……. how have i never heard the end music, like that glitchy song!!!!!!! so cool. kinda wild i never won minecraft as a kid given that i played sooooooo much of it, but now that i think back on it, i think i played it kinda like roblox, in that i really liked playing other people’s maps that i found on planetminecraft, and playing on servers with my friends
also, i was afraid of caves, so i would strip mine in every single world. and i don’t think i really knew how the end worked and i didn’t really understand the point of the nether, though i knew it was a thing. though i think i was one of the kids who tried to do the aether portal because my friend who showed me minecraft for the first time had the aether installed and i had no clue what a mod was, i was still under the impression the game was called “mindcraft” after all
fun memories :)
in my blog post on my second leaflet publication - wowza, i really am starting to just hoard blogs and stuff for no good reason other than it being free and an unmet need for attention and social interactions more or less - i said i was quite sad / bad / whatever lately, and it’s true. though, as is often the case for me, the vocalization of the thing comes as it ends. the owl of minerva takes off at dusk!
so i had a great time programming on friday and today also. working on the sabbath. judaism. i finished today lOng stOry shOrt. it was a really nice show. no real thoughts ab9ut it besides it being a really nice show. i guess kinda a weird thing about judaism is that i want to be more jewish, but i also want the synagogue to have my exact views on the world more or less. it’s kinda a strange feeling, all stuck in my ways and wanting others like me i guess. wow.. so strange. you really are sooooooooooooo unique.
in any case, ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i gofrto. Oh well i think i was planning somewhat on doing a radio show today, but then i woke up soooooooo tired even though my radio name is called eepy so that’s literally the bit, and also ummmm i think that i was feeling kinda not sure about my voice and also about if i had anything to play really? and also in general how the livestream would work because when i did a radio show it was just the radio, yknow, adding the vidual component even if nobody is watching, that kinda puts a wrench in things. though, in my 2 experiments in livestreaming earlier this week, i’ve got it: i’m going to only livestream the contents of my terminal. if i ever want to like have a vtuber thing, it needs to be ascii art, if i want to show my face, i need to figure out how to transcode my webcam to ascii art also. on thursday i made a neat little view of the chat for use in the terminal, and i can adapt my music visualizer that i was working on before to work in terminal also without tooooo much pain, though that will take a few days because i’ll have to relearn c++. alsoooooo i think that i’d like to have it be able to like sniff the audio on my computer instead of it being it’s own .wav file player. because my favorite time in the radio show i used to do was when i was pretending to be a dj, trying to beatmatch very poorly n shit. and that’s not really something i can do reliably by timing ./synthd tunes/cock.wav.
ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm idk what else to say. oh i guesss one thing thaat i do feel weird about lately, especially because i’m starting to tweet more about xcvr as i gain an awareness that i kinda need to scream a lil in order to make people aware of my b.s.,,, is that _________ i forgot. um i think it’s like that i enjoy cultivating a more mysterious cool schizo persona, but that’s not really me, and then when i start posting more about my #girlboss #lockedin #founder side, that’s also not exactly me, but it interferes with the first persona a lil, the wolves are fighting….. i think i have a voice in the written word - if an extremely grating horrible useless one. but i don’t know exactly what my voice is in the like social world of profiles and crap. i always feel on the outside//
i hope you have a nice wednesday if you’re reading this on a wednesday
good night
rot politiks now
rachel